PINK

Early this morning, my mommy left.. She will be back in a month - that is good to know. And my dad will be here in a few days. It will be interesting to start doing laundry, and cook and clean for a change :). I have been so spoiled, for almost 3 months now, I was a working mom who didn't have to worry about picking the kids up from school, getting dinner ready, cleaning up dishes after meals, folding and putting away clothes.. When I think back it was like a dream (OK sometimes a nightmare) that went by in a haze. We were on survival mode. Now that the school is over, and we know how to deal with Taxol, I should be more functional at home.

Right now we are at the infusion center. In the morning I dropped Dan off at work and came back to pick him up half an hour before chemo. So we drove to the hospital together. On the Highway we saw this truck - you know one of those that pull an 18-wheelers -, that was painted PINK from head to toe. On the back it had a pink ribbon with "Find a Cure" written on top. As we drove by it, I looked up to see the driver, who looked just like a macho truck driver. We looked at each other eye to eye, I gave him two thumbs up, he nodded and smiled. I am not sure if he could see my bold head, I hope he did. It was just a happy moment. I do wonder if he lost a sister, mother or wife to breast cancer. I hope not, I hope whoever it was has survived and is living a happy, purposeful life and are proud to have a brother/son/husband who is not afraid to paint his truck all pink to make a statement.
I was always curious/puzzled what purpose these differently colored ribbons would have, well now I know, they make the effected individual smile, feel supported and not alone.

Blood work came back normal, so I took the premeds and now am being infused with Taxol. Pep talk to my immune system: "WBCs! Do NOT freak out and cause a reaction, Taxol is our friend, even though it may seem like it is not, it is important to let it do its job!"

After this (probably another 45 minutes or so), we will pick Ada up from her child care and Deniz up from our friends house and go home. Deniz's class have their music program this evening, I am curious if she will actually sing.

more updates later this weekend..