That time of the year again ..

I am in Houston again. For a CT scan and Dr.s visit. It is always such a humbling experience to walk into the building and to know that every other person you see has had cancer (the other half are friends and family of the cancer survivors). Suddenly your own story becomes not so significant any more. It is just a story among thousands, tens of thousands. The good thing is that most people that are in waiting launges are in good health (or at least seem to be). There are occasionally patients that have lost significant weight and some that need to be wheeled in in a wheel chair. 

As I spent 3 hours in waiting rooms today, it struck me how different peoples moods are. Most are cordial and friendly towards each other and the staff (the ataff is WONDERFUL by the way, I don't know how they do it.. Not only here at MD anderson but also at the cancer enter in my home town- they always amanage to have a cheerful manner without being annoying. Sometimes I wish I could take whatever drug they must be taking to work in such a challenging job :) ).And then there are others, some that are bitter, some that are snippy towards others. You never know what is going on in people's lives.

I had the CT scan today. As they injected the contrast agent (Iodine) I thought about the last piece that Susan Gubar, (the ovarian cancer survivor professor who writes about her experiences with cancer in New York Times) wrote.  By now I am familiar with the sensation of the peeing in my pants and intense warmth on my handsband feet as the iodine starts circulating my body. But it is still as annoying as the first time. 

Tomorrow I will see my Dr. And hopefully get good news. So please say a prayer and/or send positive vibes my way.. I do need it :). Sleep comes hard and is very patchy dispite the fact that I go to the hotels work out room and run on the treadmill in the evenings.  Maybe I will read one of the scientific papers that  I logged with me, that should put me to sleep right ;)

Good night and good luck!